It happened again today...

It happened again today.  I disappointed someone. 

I am sitting in the office of a crisis pregnancy center.  I have been here many times before.  I brought in one of my clients who thought she may be pregnant.  I personally volunteered here for 5 years and have been involved with them since that time in some fashion.  So, I ran into a few old friends.  I haven't seen them in a few years.  They didn't know I was divorced.

So as the conversation grew more awkward, question by question ...
I had to say it... "You didn't hear that I am divorced now did you?" 
Then it happened... again.  The "Oh no, that can't be true face."  The "Not you too!" face.  Oh... the utter disappointment.  After the sentence where I revealed how little she knew about me, she simply, smiled, nodded and walked away.  AWKWARD! 

I knew what happened.  I failed her.  She is so sad, so many people she knows are divorced now.  It is the nature of the age we are.  She is afraid to ask... "Why? How?" and wants to just scream at the wind; for she is married.  I know it is hard to have a good marriage.  That is the exact reason I got a divorce.  It makes those people who work so hard to stay married discouraged when they realize that as strong a person as they thought I was, I too have taken the easy way out.  I have discouraged them.  They wanted more for me.  They wanted more for my kids.  They are sad for me, and they honestly are in some ways afraid.  Afraid that somehow it could happen to them.  I felt like I had contaminated her.